I‘ve always struggled with boldness. I am the least bold person that I know, you know? I love bold people. I admire their fearlessness, their tenacious spirit and unyielding conviction. When a bold person knows they are right about a thing, there is no swaying them. They will die before they yield their convictions. This can sometimes create problems for them because every once in awhile, well… they are wrong. But no matter, they’ve erred with the best of intentions. Now a not so bold person (me) may know they are right. They may have strong convictions – often this is the case – yet, something inside of them creates hesitation. It goes well beyond fear, though in the end, I do believe that it is fear of some nature which lies at the source of this roadblock to a boldness they do not own. I hate not being bold – especially when I know that I am right. I’m the guy who asks for mustard on his hotdog and is satisfied with ketchup because, well… no sense in pissing some stranger off when ketchup on a dog isn’t so bad. Besides, the guy who made it looks really angry right now, and who can blame him? How happy would you be if you had to make hotdogs all day for a living?
I like jumping out of airplanes. I love toying with danger, going to dangerous places in far away lands. It fulfills my sense of excitement and adventure. But I think the deeper reason for doing some of these things is some messed up notion subconsciously within me, that somehow doing some of these things will compensate for that lack of boldness that I crave. Jumping out of an airplane is exhilarating! It also makes me feel a little less of a coward. But at the end of the day, well… I am still quite scarred of a great many things. It’s that fear of unknowing which drives every human into one state or the other: it’s a rush for those with boldness. For the rest of us, it’s also a rush… a rush of absolute terror! I think at the end of the day, it is about trust. Sky – diving isn’t really as trust driven as one might think. Oh sure, there’s a calculated risk involved. I can personally testify to that first hand. I’ve had my near – death experience! But looking at the numbers, they’re in your favor. Research how many sky – diving deaths there are annually and you’ll understand that not many people die from that sport. When you jump, you know exactly where you’re trying to get to; it’s just a matter of getting there. And some days, because of wind and weather conditions, it can be tougher then other days. Essentially, however, it really is all up to 3 people: the pilot getting me close enough to the drop zone, me doing my job properly (which includes packing my own chute – usually), and the stranger who packed my reserve chute. Granted, there’s not a huge margin for error, but still… the odds are stacked pretty high in my favor!
Pool of Bethesda
God gives us each a spirit of boldness, not of timidity. Some of us just have difficulty finding it! Being bold isn’t being loud. Boldness is being confident, confident and sure of your objectives. Following God confidently means even when you can’t see the drop – zone (so to speak) you’re confident that He’s putting you out in a safe place where you’ll have a better then decent chance at getting where He wants you to land. People who are bold can step out in confidence because they’ve prayed that God would lead them. And when He does, they move without hesitation. They can be cautious but when the time comes to move, they move. They are not so tied down to this world that those things can keep them tied up and prohibit their own movements for God.
Josh at Maggido
My baby brother, Joshua, is a bold person. I love his passion for the gospel and his commitment to all things Christ. His fire is contagious and his spirit, unbending. He sees a thing, and he attacks it with purpose. Four times I’ve seen him pack up his family and move them half way across the country. No job waiting on three of those occasions. Why? Because he was certain, after great prayer that each move was exactly where God wanted him to go. When he left for Chicago to attend Moody Bible Institute, he wasn’t even sure how he would pay for his school let alone provide for his family. But he had confidence that just as God had given him the green light to go to Chicago, it just made sense to him that God would ultimately be his primary benefactor as well. Josh is probably THE
- “His FIRE, contagious; His Spirit…unbending.”
Boldest person I’ve ever known. I have no shame in saying that this is a quality (among many) for which I deeply love and admire in my brother, Joshua.
I’ll tell you who else was bold: (can you see this one coming?!) You bet Jesus was bold. Bold to preach an unpopular message with the religious establishment; bold to love the unlovely; bold to give a life for so many so undeserving; bold to know the pain He’d have to bare ahead of time and STILL go through with it! And it is this SAME BOLDNESS which rests in every believer. As I begin to rest in Christ and rely more heavily upon Him, boldness approaches my spirit like a coming storm. It crashes on the beaches of my heart like a hurricane bringing resolve with it dashing those structures of instability called fear and unknowing. And it approaches with fury!
Deep down, I know that we all have the ability to be bold for Christ. We may also be bold IN Christ: “Approach the throne of Grace with boldness” I believe the Word reminds us. We have been given that spirit of boldness. Perhaps what needs to be worked out first, however is our trust! Knowing God is in control and living under God’s control are two completely separate notions. Work out you trust in your prayer life first and then watch as boldness begins to present itself more and more. Boldness is not something to be wished for; it is something to be seized! But until I’ve worked out my own faith in how much I trust my God, I won’t be able to recognize when boldness appears before me. I’ll be to busy looking elsewhere for my safety! SAG