“A ruffled mind makes a restless pillow.” ~ Charlotte Bronte
Sometimes I just need to clean my office or my car out as nothing more then for purely symbolical reasons. Call it a cleansing, call it a purging, but I come to this moment where I am on the verge – on the very edge of some huge precipice and all activity stops, mentally, and I understand that I will accomplish no more until my office, my vehicle or both are clean. It may not look clean to others but I just start cleaning until I hear this inner voice inside me proclaim “Yup. That’s it. That’s good enough. Now we can get back to work.”
I am so restless right now. There is a great stirring inside me and I don’t know quite how to handle it. It’s like I’m unable to center myself on anything, especially God. That’s a bad place to be. But I still keep trying to get before Him and truthfully… that’s actually a really good place to be. In my restlessness, cleaning my office or my car out could help, but it will only be in deep prayer that I will be able to clear out the clutter in my soul in order to hear the clarity and direction from the Lord that I so desperately need.
Prison, Uganda, the church, the band, youth ministry, home group, any and every ministry I may be involved in at the moment… none of it matters right now. Not because it’s not important, but because I’ve stopped making critical decisions for the time being until such time as I can clearly hear which direction the Lord truly wants me to head out in. For now, I’ll keep praying… and tidying up things in my little corner here. God will speak when He is certain that I’ll hear Him. So I gotta get the rest of this clutter and noise out of here. There can be no clarity and certaintly no rest until some of the cutter gets cleared away. Cleaning my office and my car will be easy; clearing the clutter away from my heart may take a little more time… but I’m on it!
Peace, today. SAG
Today’s Scripture: 3 John 1:9-10
9 I have written something to the church, but Diotrephes, who likes to put himself first, does not acknowledge our authority.
10 So if I come, I will bring up what he is doing, talking wicked nonsense against us. And not content with that, he refuses to welcome the brothers, and also stops those who want to and puts them out of the church