“I CAN make a difference, dad… just NOT today…”
The real crisis of my soul is no easy problem to fix. Fixable? Yes. But much work and attention to details will be required. And I’m not always so certain that I am up for the task… and that will be the greatest hurdle to overcome if God and I are going to first, address then adjust the issues which have created this deep crisis within my soul.
“Are you for us, or for our adversaries?”
Have you ever felt like this? To believe in Christ but doubt His ability to change you is to have the shallowest of faiths. There still remains within you a strong resistance to His Will. I have arrived at such a place, when I find myself doubting whether He can truly change me, as to question how
I really can be called a follower of Jesus. As I seek Him earnestly, I come away understanding that at the heart of my heart’s dilemma is the absence of complete surrender to the Will of God. There still remains somewhere within my heart a stronghold of resistance to the Will and Grace of God. I must root it out and thoroughly bring it under the heel of His Holy Spirit.
“Take off your sandals from your feet,
for the place where you are standing
Like Joshua at Jericho, I cannot inhabit the promised land until I eradicate these strongholds that resist the Will of my God. He will not inhabit a place with a hostile enemy nearby and He will not fully inhabit a heart still hostile to His Will. We must seek out these pockets of rebellion within our hearts and let the Holy Spirit bring these strongholds down.
“I am the commander of the army of
the LORD. Now I have come.”
I’m not saying Jesus doesn’t come into our hearts from the moment we ask Him in there. But from that moment we ask Him to cross over, He does so immediately and at that moment we are now at war with our flesh. But I want Christ to conquer my entire heart, I don’t want Him just to inhabit the outer limits of it. We will always be searching out the strongholds lest they be allowed to co-exist in the land that is now rightfully God’s. They will divide our loyalties to Him. When one stronghold has been pulled down, we move on to find the next one and the next after that until every inch of our hearts belong to Him. The battles are easily won if we follow the battle directions of the Holy Spirit.
“Joshua laid an oath on them at that
time, saying, Cursed before the LORD
be the man who rises up and rebuilds
this city, Jericho. At the cost of his
firstborn shall he lay its foundation,
and at the cost of his youngest son
shall he set up its gates.”
I must decide today that I will seek out the Jericho’s within my heart and pull them down. But it will require that I decide to let certain things go that I think I still want to hang on to. It’s really not a crisis after all… it’s a matter of who’s Will I truly believe will bring me the greatest outcome… His or my own.
Peace, Sean Gutteridge
13 When Joshua was by Jericho, he lifted up his eyes and looked, and behold, a man was standing before him with his drawn sword in his hand. And Joshua went to him and said to him, “Are you for us, or for our adversaries?”
14 And he said, “No; but I am the commander of the army of the LORD. Now I have come.” And Joshua fell on his face to the earth and worshiped and said to him, “What does my lord say to his servant?”
15 And the commander of the LORD’s army said to Joshua, “Take off your sandals from your feet, for the place where you are standing is holy.” And Joshua did so.
26 Joshua laid an oath on them at that time, saying, “Cursed before the LORD be the man who rises up and rebuilds this city, Jericho. “At the cost of his firstborn shall he lay its foundation, and at the cost of his youngest son shall he set up its gates.”