[Written while in Uganda]
It’s hard to imagine myself struggling with pride given the fact that I have little to no confidence in myself. But pride has many forms and can manifest itself in peculiar ways. I’m not that stupid… I know pride lurks everywhere and it idles in me patiently.
Pride is the deification of self, Oswald Chambers wrote. It is the path the soul travels in making itself a god. Self interest over-rides God’s desires and ambitions for my life, pushing aside the steadiness of a greater purpose… I have made my desires and dreams my idols.
But Pride can also manifest itself so subtly at times and this is as bad as when Pride appears so obvious. Transparent Pride cloaks itself in humility, yet it is an insult to The Lord when we say “I’m not Holy, I am just a simple man.” That’s pride talking. That’s pride saying “I’m not Holy, God… I never will be Holy, God… and You can’t make me Holy…” Once we allow ourselves to pursue the Holiness of God intently, pride knows it’s screwed. And it begins with the acknowledgment NOT that we ARE Holy, but with the determined admission that we most certainly CAN be Holy AND… we now desire TO be Holy. Humility isn’t telling God what we are not. Humility is setting our pride aside in favor of God’s will.
Whatever form it takes, Pride is an affront to all Christ desires to do and be in us. Don’t be deceived… Pride is the effective weapon the enemy longs to use in separating us from the Grace of God and in every form and every season, Pride is always lurking. It waits for the perfect opportunity to silently slip in. Don’t let it.
Peace, Sean Gutteridge
3 The pride of your heart has deceived you, you who live in the clefts of the rock, in your lofty dwelling, who say in your heart, “Who will bring me down to the ground?”
4 Though you soar aloft like the eagle, though your nest is set among the stars, from there I will bring you down, declares the LORD